mind over matter,

i can be truly confused sometimes. confused with the messages that the people around me send to me. most of them, who are closest to me, sends the worst messages of all. they dont understand me, they never support me, but they're just there to fill in the place of my closest people. why? why dont you just leave that spot a vacancy? i dont need people who are only there to destroy me. thank you March. you are such a great month, i'm always gonna remember you _|_ like so much t-.-t

i feel like screaming, i feel like, telling everyone the truth that my life, isn't as sweet as it looks, isn't as dreamy as they picture. it's the worst kind of life. you may say i am exaggerating but i'm telling you the truth. fine, i give rlly good advises to people around me. but that's only because i have lived the worst kind of life, i take those advises from my worst misery. but they dont know, that i had to go thru a lot to give them such supportive words, they just, don't know, at all.