mind over matter,

have you ever had that feeling like you're feeling so lonely in this world? like you have no one else to hold on to? to guide you? to actually understand what you are going thru? and to actually pick you up again once yre down? well, that's what i'm feeling right now. i feel so lost and empty to the extent that i do not knw what to do next. i know ppl will say 'ala, SPM je' 'SPM is not everything' 'SPM shldnt break you down nd make you loose hope' but the truth is, menipu sangatlah kalau kata tak sedih, tak marah, tak kecewa. kita semua manusia yg penuh dgn perasaan. tak salah kalau nak rasa sedih, it is in fact, normal. but what's not normal here is that you, actually losing hope over this one simple test that Allah had present to you.

while i cried like crazy just now, my brother said 'Allah bagi farah ujian mcm ni sbb Dia sygkan farah yknw, He loves you soo much that He wants you to always remember Him' from that we all know we shld always, always trust Him, trust His powers, and trust His plans for each and every one of us, 'sesungguhnya rancangan Allah SWT tiada cacat celanya' maybe it hurts now, maybe we become fragile now because of this, but let's make this one test a motivation to push us further and better in life. we might never know what might just happen to us, but we should knw that whatever we go thru, is the best for us. no one in this world knows us better than Allah.

you may cry all you want, but always promise yrself that you won't repeat the same mistakes over again. life is too short to be sad over something small if you want to compare it to the world. one day you might be telling people how you did in yr SPM, while standing high up. bcse succeeding in exams, doesnt rlly guarantee your success in life. if you choose to be successful in exams as yr source of happiness nd great life, well too bad yre wrong.

xoxo to all my girls nd batch of 95's. say alhamdulillah nd move on