mind over matter,

hello monsieur A, your name needs a little getting used to ;) i know i'm not suppose to be hoping fr anything except for my SPM results but i'm sorry if i cant help it sometimes. you are a good person, maybe this is a little too soon to confirm but i think i know it by heart. i'm glad i have known you as a friend. you see, the thing about me and boyfriends is that i don't do boyfriends. but i do know i definitely do amazingly good looking crushes, but it's only as far as that. i don't think i'm suited or prepared enough to have a boyfriend considering my age and my mind set sometimes just doesn't match.

although i do complain a lot how some guys have this at the highest rate, i do too, sometimes think i have a high level of ego. yes, sometimes all i think about is myself. sometimes. but that's what makes it ineligible for me to think about serious relationships. i do hate it when i see some of my good friends slowly finding their happiness in other people, but in the end, i get bored easily w one and one person only, and it specifies to boyfriend. so i think it's better if i lay off and learn more about relating myself to life.

maybe it's Allah saving me from a disadvantage but however it is, i shall stay far away from that for now.