boys boys my boys

hello! assalamualaikum :) i hope you are all well while reading this. And if you are, thank you. It flatters me to know there are people who reads my rants even if you are a sranger to me. Today I'd like to write about the one thing (One Direction) that i seem to fail miserably at. Yes you guessed right, Boys. You see what i meant by 'FAIL' is that in my group of girlfriends, i am clueless when it comes to dating, i think sometimes that i am phobic towards boys, because i am.

Yesterday i went to Times Square with Ju and Alysa, our Ju's main goal was to meet someone who liked her, this somewhat brings me back memories as i've done this before. Yes, his name is was Amir, it hurts to think that it's been almost a year since we talked. After our big fight last december, i was so mad i wanted to surgically remove him from my heart. His name never to be mentioned again, his face never to be seen by my eyes, but i know it's impossible because you can take the girl out of the relationship but you can never take the relationship out of the girl. Its almost impossible as you will be bound to be thinking about it voluntarily or involuntarily. However, little did i know that during this almost-one-year period he had been asking about me whenever he meets his cousin/my girlfriend. This only meant one thing, he still remembers me.

Anyone would be flattered if they are remembered by heart, let alone when that person is someone you know best. Truth is, i miss him too. I counted from time to time how long has it been since our fight. Each week, each month. But no action has been done to talk to him. I even lost his number. Because i was soo mad. Plus i even consulted with few of my girlfriends for advice and wise actions.

AlysaFarah

what happened to that guy farah? Ju's cousin?

*long silence* um

haha so i thought farah

dah lama i tak cakap dgn dia. what? 1 year

haha lama gila

you know he's a really good friend but after that fight kitorg dah tak ckp dah to each other

oh

SyaFarah

hi sya! hope im not interrupting. i need yr opinion, do you think i should apologise to amir. if yes, why?

 in my opinion, try calling him first and ask how do you do or whts up but dnt apologise first unless he is acting cold

um well you see sya i kinda DONT know how to apologise to guys and i lost his number. kinda

OME! canne na contact dia? you KINDA?

i can ask from his cousin. tapi takpelah sya, maybe he doesnt remember me anymore, maybe he's forgotten. kbai

you told me the other day he remembered u! decide fawah

SyaFarah

sya he remembers me.

awwww mcm dlm noveeeeel

haha no.

ala call jela dia farah, tak rugi punn

haih idk idk idk

hm yela idk je memanjang, call je dia ingat lagi kat awak tuuuu

:/ what do you think? should i or should i not call?